It’s been one year since I lost the most important person in my life.
365 days since I felt your arms around me and heard your sweet, vibrant voice.
You carried me for 9 months, lived with me for 18 years, took care for me for longer than you probably should have and made me feel safe and loved every single second of my life.
With every passing moment, with all of my heart I wish you didn’t have to go. My only hope now is that I can make you proud of the woman I have become, I’m striving to be the best I can be everyday. I believe you are watching over Sara and me as we raise our children and attempt to live up to your legacy.
I talk about you often with Caden and Melody to preserve their memory of you, and to keep my memories of you as bright and vibrant as the person you were. I miss your voice, I miss your generous heart, I miss your beautiful spirit, most of all I miss talking to you each and everyday about nothing and everything.
You said the greatest gift a person can be given is the ability to help others. I know you felt that with your whole being and you showed it every day in every way.
I’m still learning how to live without you, some days are better than others. I try not to be sad that I lost you and just remember how lucky I am to have had such a wonderful mother who taught me so much.
I hope you felt how much you were loved by all of the hearts you touched (and there were an abundance of them). You will always be with me in my heart and I will do my best to make you proud. I love you Mom.
Oh, Jessie. What an anniversary. So sorry. I hadn’t realised how recent the death of your mother was. She sounds like a beloved woman.